In the beginning, the computer functioned normally and efficiently. Although there were some malicious attacks directed against it, its firewall initially worked well, deflecting some and making sure the worst of the others was hidden deep in the computer’s hard-drive. The computer was responsive, hard-working and quick to process all tasks that it was assigned. [...]
Well…I don’t really hate this blog. As I’ve said several times, it is in fact my pride and joy – or, at least, what has gone before has made up what I call my pride and joy. I don’t feel very proud or very joyful at the minute, though it’s not the blog’s fault, obviously; [...]
This post follows on from the extraordinarily thrilling events detailed in the entry that immediately precedes it. The following may make no sense if you have not read them. It may also may no sense if you have. Then again, they were so tremendously exciting that if you read or have read them, you might die of a hedonism-induced heart attack, so proceed with caution. Alternatively you might die of a boredom-induced heart attack so, again, proceed with caution. [...]
I have been trying to review last week’s session with C in my usual detail, but I’ve had a very stressful day (gruesome CAB appointment, and much Disraeli trouble ) and that, coupled with my ungraciously low mood and lethargy of late, has left me weak and defeated. I’m going to eat and try writing [...]
I was a complete bitch to C last week. I just sat there and insulted him for about half the session – perhaps more – and he didn’t really deserve any of it. It’s not his fault he has to abandon me at the end of the summer, and even though my rants weren’t necessarily [...]
Last Thursday’s session with C was the first one after the whole, ‘fuck it, I’m quitting therapy’ debacle of hilarious histrionics about which I wrote last Wednesday. I suppose my thoughts weighted in favour of leaving treatment at a time of my choosing were partly in light of the whole DID discussion that we had [...]
Hello once more, all. I returned on Monday from Turkey having had a lovely time and being in a surprisingly non-shit mood upon arrival back in Norn Iron. I think the good weather here helped; this country, for all its faults, is stunningly beautiful especially whilst bathed in bright sunlight. Anyway, I may report on [...]
WARNING: RANT I am going on holiday this evening. Ergo, I will be (mostly) in absentia until at least 24 May. Unlike the preceeding hours before the last time I went on holiday, I am not in a good mood. I am, in fact, muderously livid. C is to blame (surprise surprise), even though it’s [...]
This is my first post from my new laptop, which I awarded myself (in part) for reaching my first blogoversary. Although it’s a Windows machine – and I am used to and prefer Linux – I still love it. As a tablet PC, it has a touch screen, which has been enabling me to do [...]
Walking home in the rain after meeting a friend for lunch today, it occurred to me how much responsibility is in my hands to not go completely doolally and get myself locked up, or to not end up in a fugue of a notably longer duration than the mini-fugues to which I am ‘used’. If [...]
…Almost literally? Designed using Wordle. Not the best evening I’ve had. Cannot stop ruminating, as the above probably attests. Alas.
Week 42. Week 42. How can this be? I look back through this journal, and see prose referencing sessions as far back as week 10. I read through said posts, and remember clearly the discussions, the facial expressions, the tones of voice to which I have alluded. It all seems like yesterday. How did we [...]
Thursday was the first day back to therapy after C’s Christmas break. It was a successful session in a long-term sort of way, but was nevertheless very traumatic for me, tackling as it did a lot of hurt and vulnerabilities that I don’t want to face nor admit to. There was nothing specific that was [...]
Those that follow the Twitter stream that I have allied with this blog will know that I did not intend to write a blog today (LATER: yesterday). I was feeling a bit low after CVM called me this morning to report that her father had sadly died early this morning (LATER: well – technically now [...]
I alluded briefly to the fact that I find Christmas a profoundly difficult time of year the other week. I have hated the day and all its build-up since, I would guess, my early teens. I still do, and I rationalise it on the grounds that it is a commercialised load of crap borne purely [...]
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