Note: this session took place just under three weeks ago and inevitably my recollection of it is skewed. I really don’t think much of great use happened anyway, but I will be leaving leaving stuff out. Apologies to C (as if he’ll ever read this) if I am in any way misrepresenting him (I don’t [...]
So apparently Seaneen, my fellow Norn Iron mental health blogger who writes at mentallyinteresting.org.uk, has been told she does not have bipolar disorder, but borderline. Anyone with any knowledge of mental illness that has read Seaneen’s blog knows that it is 100% fucking clear that she has manic depression. It doesn’t take the abject wankery [...]
Recent conversations with C regarding my experiences of child sex abuse have been highly suggestive that there’s a lot more to what happened than that which is recalled in my forefront, conscious memory. In recent sessions, and outside them at times too, I keep getting flashbacks of incidents of which I’d not previously been aware, [...]
Thanks, anti-psychotics. You’re doing a fabulous job. I’m still actively suicidal, fighting every second not to give in to my overwhelming desire to top myself, and now, as well as hearing ‘They’, I’m seeing fucking gnomes walking down the street, and strange shapes floating past my direct vision. The gnome ignored me, like. It just [...]
Yet another day with two posts. Sorry. In short, she is better than her predecessor, though as W said to me this morning, she could hardly be much worse. In fairness to OldVCB, I had come round to her a little before our relationship was severed, but nevertheless, I am not exactly sorry to see [...]
I’ve decided to undertake a new venture for a new year. Whilst I feel very lucky that so many people enjoy this blog (why?!), I also thought it would be good if I could make it of some use too by sharing some of the most interesting psychiatry and psychology articles I come across through [...]
The week before Christmas, I had to see a GP that I don’t normally attend, owing to the fact that LGP is so popular that I couldn’t get an appointment with him. The appointment was mainly to confirm the diagnosis of IBS, given as I had a number of blood tests to rule out other [...]
I’ve mentioned the voice quite a bit lately, but I haven’t really gone into any detail about it. Largely, that’s because there’s not really a great deal about him to discuss. Still, I thought I’d make my best effort, as quite clearly hearing voices represents psychosis (or at least something odd), which clearly does not [...]
As any of you who have read this blog since I began it in May will know, it has long since been my intention to write about each of the different therapists of one description or another that I’ve seen over the years. The idea was inspired by the same type of post by Introspective [...]
So, after my grovelling apology and new-found respect for Dr C back in June, the current behaviour of her and her team has reinforced to me why I thought they were shit in the first place. I was supposed to be seeing Dr C next Tuesday, so as she could review how the change to [...]
Yesterday was the first time I lost it with C. I have been wry with him, played mindgames with him, slagged him off to others – but never yet have I actually exhibited annoyance directly at him. Anger is the wrong word, really. It wasn’t as strong as that, but it was certainly the first [...]
A bit of a turn up for the books, this is. After the misery of C yesterday, and my intense dislike for Dr C the last time I saw her, I am very happy with how this morning’s meeting with the latter went. There is not a great deal of point in detailing the entire [...]
One of Dr C‘s minions phoned yesterday to report that an appointment has been made for me this Friday at 9.30am. Aside from being frightened of nasty Dr C and the possibility of yet another panel interview-esque meeting with her and Dr N, I am kind of angry. I was referred to a psychiatrist in [...]
I wrote the other day about my mental dichotomy as regards wanting to be able to manage my episodes of madness and not wanting to lose my mentalism altogether, mainly as it has such a large bearing on my sense of self. I was surprised but pleased by the level of response from others with [...]
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